Current location:	BN
Current mood:	pensive
Current music:	The First Noel
Entry tags:	random, work

A random comment and then some food for my thoughts...
This randomness was meant for the wee hours prior to T-Day, but I was too tired lazy to post:

You know it's time for bed when you forget the pumpkin in the pumpkin spiced cookies. =P

Since I started working in my new position, it's been somewhat of a whirlwind process. The plan for my first week was to "shadow" someone else, to get a feel for what I should be doing. However, within the first 2 days, I was thrown into transporting/visiting others' clients on my own, and learning all the paperwork that goes with it. Not even 2 weeks later, I got my first couple of clients. It's been busy, but good. I'm learning a lot, and I think I'm getting better at not letting things get to me so much. However, there are those days, when you have to ponder on life and how everything is connected. This last thought spurred from events/conversations that occurred during my shift.

My first client passed away over the holiday weekend. She was diagnosed with a mental illness (bizarre behaviors, forgetful, delusions, depression), and came to us. She was hospitalized within a month later, where they found a brain tumor the size of an orange. The professional medical opinion was that her symptoms were probably caused by the tumor. Why it wasn't found sooner, no idea. I was in shock when my coworker first told me. Then I cried a little. Now, I'm okay. I feel like I'm in a haze. Despite her issues with her mom, her mom has been such a crazy good support for her. I felt sad for them. I felt guilty that I didn't get to visit her last week, but I know it wasn't like I could do anything about it.

The reason I didn't get to visit the aforementioned client last week, was that I got stuck with another client, waiting for him to be hospitalized for homicidal thoughts. Just my luck, his thoughts progress to include me during transport to the medical center around the corner. Needless to say, it was kind of dumb to agree to it, and now I know better.

In light of the holiday that just passed and of all the changes that have occurred in the last few months, I feel so very grateful that my family and friends are here to support and love me, no matter what. I'm especially grateful to have awesome coworkers, who really look out for one another. Oh, and chocolate was especially helpful to my sanity this week. =P Life's waaaay too short for me to worry as much as I do. I'm slowly learning to let things go, even if I don't like it.