I'm in Zebu, taking my lunch, and NOT DOING WORK! I refuse. I've been doing too much of work outside of work that I can feel it...the burnout coming. But, I'm not going to let it get to me. I still have a little over a year before I get my clinical license, and almost 2 before I can quit if I wanted. Just waiting it out. At least my coworkers are great and supportive. I think I would've gone bonkers a long time ago, if it weren't for them.

The weather's gorgeous outside. It's chilly, but bright and inviting. I'm tempted by their giant cookies here, but I'm trying to be good. The Hubby and I started the gym this month, and I don't want to end up with a negative workout. =P

My mind's all over the place. Hehe. I think it's 'cause I got up at 5:30am. Because of the gym. Yeah. Not sure how I feel about the early-morning gym sessions. However, I don't know if I can actually force myself to go after work either. Oh, decisions. The dilemmas of being a grown up, with a metabolism no longer being that of a supermotor.

In my efforts to continue simplifying my life, I'm thinking that I'll eventually downgrade my LJ. I'm just not frequenting it enough to justify having a paid account. Now the question: basic or plus? I know there are ads on plus, but I don't really see them on some of my friends' sites who have this type. I've also read through the added benefits from the basic. I'm just not sure if the plus ads will be as annoying as it looks in my head. Does anyone have any feedback on this? If you do, I'd greatly appreciate it. Thanks.

Have a great day!

It's FREEZING! I wish I could go back to bed, under the warm covers. I can't wait until the weekend, to hide in warmness all day. *shivers*

Sans the rain, the weather was quite nice. It was warm, sunny during some parts, and it was still light when I headed home at 7:30pm. I love this season. =)

...for it to be so sunny-gorgeous outside, and be so freakin' cold!

The weather was so warm today that I walked outside with a light sweater and no jacket. It's February. In Jersey. 0.o *falls over*

On the upside, the kids weren't freezing when we took them out to play Running Bases. =P

It's dreary outside, but I'm happy it's almost the weekend. Here's a few updates:

• I finalized my new schedule with my supervisor. I drop my extra morning hours next week, and I go 80% the following week through to Christmas week.
  
• The prof who seemingly picks on me told me yesterday that I'm "doing much better" now. Ya mean I wasn't before? 0.o  *scratches head*
• It's dreary outside. Today should be a stay-inside-and-sleep-'cause-it's-raining day.
  
• Oppositional people still get me really, really anxious. Luckily, I have great coworkers helping me learn to deal with them more appropriately.
• I can focus my efforts this weekend on cookies and truffles. Yay!
• I'm feeling really motivated, and I think I'm going to try to start some research this weekend for my paper due at the end of the month.
• I'm feeling much better. Thanks for the support.

After getting all worked up that my barbecue might not happen, the clouds broke and God blessed me with sunlight for a good part of the day.

The Hubby and I awoke early to prep everything for the split-second decision we would make about going forward with or cancelling the event. We were tired and we easily got on each others' nerves. However, our moodiness subsided when headed out to scope the picnic area. We pushed our thoughts to *BBQ-happening MOJO*, while the sunlight danced between the clouds. We talked about what we would still need to get, and who said was coming. A few times during the drive, I'd say out loud that I hoped the weather would keep, especially with the forecast calling for 30% chances of thunderstorms/showers all day. Just the worrier in me. =T

We arrived to the site, happy to see that the area wasn't as mucky as we thought it might be after lots of rain, and decided to have the barbecue. Yay! We quickly headed over to ShopRite to get some last minute barbecue items, and went home to pack and get ready. We had to be at the site at 10:30am, so we needed to hustle. We took turns getting ready and standing watch at the picnic site before our guests arrived.

( I had so much fun at the barbecue that I'm exhausted now. )

I'm happy and grateful. The Hubby was just as happy as I was that we were able to have it. I know he recognized that I needed this decompression. I think he needed it too.

I feel really good today. Tired, but content.

That's how much of my paper I completed yesterday in approximately 5 hours. Woo! I stayed up typing until 2am, though it's probably more because of the after-dinner coffee than the anxiety of finishing it. I'm up early today because I just couldn't sleep anymore, and I feel more motivated than ever to get at least another third of the paper out of the way before my other class tonight. This paper's not due until Wednesday morning, so I think I have lots of time. If the rest of the paper goes as smoothly as yesterday, then I'll be golden by tomorrow evening. *keeps fingers crossed*

Other stuff went on this weekend, but until this paper is completed, that news might be on hold except for this: it's another GORGEOUS day. Practically shorts weather. =D

Today was even more beautiful than yesterday! It was so warm outside that I was able to wear my orange and cream sundress to the shower. I've been dying to wear something light and "dainty" (as my mom put it), all week. =) The sun made me very happy, even though I had to spend much of it indoors for Carissa's shower.

The shower went well. Many people said they had a good time and commended us, bridesmaids, for our efforts in making the shower entertaining and beautiful. I was able to see Liza and some old HS classmates, too. Carissa said she loved everything. The most entertaining part of the shower to me was that Carissa's first 10 or so gifts were all bath towels! *L* It was to the point that the guests began to lose interest in playing Shower Bingo. =P It was busy, busy all the way to the end, but it was worth it. This was the worst of it. The shower was a success, and people seemed happy.

I stopped by my parents' house for another few hours after the shower, chatting with my parents about my cousins and our visit to Canada at the end of May, and talking to my sister about recent happenings and friendships.

I'm now at home, geting ready to eat more pizza with The Hubby. I feel so tired, but not really sleepy. It's been a long day, and I'm ready to unwind now.

Despite the forecast for rain on the CW11 this morning, there was none. However, the excessive rain for the last few days caused some major traffic delays around the area. Thus, my class last night was cancelled, and I had to reschedule my counseling appointment today because I wasn't getting anywhere in the awful mess. I checked my school email account, which stated that NB (where Rutgers is located), was in a state of emergency because practically all the roads around the area were flooded/affected by the storms. 0.0 Crazy.

So, after doing some grumbling and mentally kicking myself for not checking the traffic reports and leaving sooner, I headed home, and proceeded to do some work on my presentation for tomorrow's class and wrap some prizes for my friend's bridal shower this weekend.

The weather's warmer now, and the birds are chirping. Put's me in a bit of a good mood. The batteries are finally done charging, so now I can finish off my presentation. I hope to get it done before The Hubby gets home, so I can make pizza and bake some cookies tonight.

The Nwk campus is open. All the classes and offices are running as scheduled, despite the wacky rainy/snowy weather. The Rutgers campus near me cancelled classes today. I find it funny when one part of the University closes down, and not another.

Anyway, I heard that they were evacuating some places near the Hackensack River: New Milford and New Rochelle. It doesn't sound like rain right now over here, but I'm not sure if more will be going on later. It's been raining on and off since late Saturday night. I'll have to check my travel route to see if any place is flooded and plan an alternate route.

So, my mood has vastly improved. I haven't been much in the mood to post these days, mostly because my life is somewhat dull right now, but also because the weather's gotten so much warmer, and I'd rather spend my days outside or doing much-needed relaxing.

I spent the weekend in Dallas, visiting The Hubby. The weather was gorgeous, despite the forecasts of chance thunderstorms throughout the weekend. =) We did the Tourist Thing on Saturday, walking around Dallas, visiting the place where JFK was shot, and going through the Sixth Floor Museum (dedicated to the JFK assassination). We went to this place called Papadeaux, which had awesome creole/cajun seafood, and had enough left over for a full meal the next day. On Sunday, we mostly relaxed, and took in a flick with Lucas Haas called Who Loves the Sun, one of the many films offered during Dallas' first AFI film festival. Some parts of the movie were good, but not enough to win a high rating from either of us. We got back to the hotel early, so The Hubby could do some laundry, and so we could catch up on some shows. I left Monday morning, and got back in time for my class, but not really because of my dinner outing with Cris and her Jon.

My internship's winding down, and tonight's my final group with my kids. We're going to be doing a little art project/recap, followed by a mini-pizza party. I feel a bit frazzled getting everything together (I was never good with party planning), but I think I have just about everything I need.

Well, need to get ready now. If only there were a place I could have my group outside. It's so gorgeous!

Got bored of my layout, so I reverted to this old one to commemorate the coming of Spring. Too bad it's colder today than yesterday. I think DD hot chocolate's in order. No free iced coffee for me.

There's a wintry mix of precipitation outside. Big Boss Lady announced the cancellation of the kids' program for today, so our super said we could come in for regular business hours today. Woo! At 11:30am, Big Boss Lady told us that we're closing early. Yay! Even better, she told us that the kids' program will be cancelled tomorrow; therefore, no work for me! Wahoo! *dances around*

Today's been a good day so far. I got home a couple of hours ago, I didn't die from driving in the crazy weather, and HP4's on in the background. =)

I decided to make my last post a private one because I realize, after a day of thinking it over, I already know my answer, and no one needs to hear me complain, yet again. So, for those of you who read it, I appreciate your taking the time to do so, as I always do. For those of you who haven't or didn't get a chance to, I just thank you for being there in past entries.

I think I'm just really confused right now, and thus it's making me feel very blurty. =?

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I've been working night shifts since Tuesday, so it leaves little time for me to check mail and comment on others' entries as much as I would like. However, I do enjoy working with the kids, and I realize that working with them is starting to grow on me. Perhaps working with kids is still in my professional future. =)

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I find it very strange that the weather can be warm enough for me to wear short-sleeve this morning, but so freezing cold when I got home an hour ago. Even stranger is that there's a rumor that we'll be getting 6 inches of snow tomorrow. 0.o Wacky weather.

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I got a whole package of unbruised strawberries and a box O'Cocos mocha crisps from Whole Foods today. Yum!

I'm running on 30 minutes of sleep right now. I made chocolate oatmeal for the caffeine. I might have to take a mocha frapp to my internship this afternoon, though I don't think I'll need it. All of my appointments are back-to-back tonight, so the constant movement should help keep my mind focused and awake.

Though I'm disappointed that I was such a slacker (again), I'm so relieved that I'm done with my take home. After 2pm tomorrow, my spring break will begin!

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I did a lot of arts and crafts stuff in the last few weeks and accumulated a few pics for viewing; so, they will hopefully go up by Friday. I'm also in the mood to change my layout, though I'm not exactly sure what I want to do. I think there will be green or violet in it somewhere. =P

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It's snowing outside. Roads were a bit slippery, but not as bad as a couple of weeks ago. I think I might go to Panera for soup in a bread bowl. It's definitely that kind of day.

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All righty. I think I should pay attention to my prof now.

For some reason, I woke up this morning before the alarm went off...at 6... 0.o

I'm not complaining, since now I can putz around for a bit before work without feeling guilty. =P I even did my AM Yoga, without rushing. =D

Right now, The Hubby's toasting the waffles I made last night.

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I think we'll be taking the kids to see The Bridge to Terabithia. It's the only kid-friendly movie I see listed on Moviefone, and it's our scheduled activity today at work. Hopefully, the kids will like it.

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It's supposed to be kinda warm today and partly sunny. I'm enjoying the weather change very much. Yesterday, I was outside for a bit without a coat. =)

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I think my time for putzing around is just about up. I need to eat and get ready now. I think today will be a good day. *keeps fingers crossed*

Once the sun came out, I started to feel much better. Well, that, and the verbal rant to my counselor about what's been going on for the past couple of weeks. =P

The Hubby's been pretty supportive through my funky mood swings, of which I'm grateful. As a treat, tonight will all be about the comfort foods: breakfast for dinner! The Hubby even said I could buy some ice cream and we now have Starbucks mocha frapps in the house! *hops around in excitement* Lots of chocolate-flavored things in the house make me very giddy. =D

Though I already went grocery shopping, I still have to get a few things to buy at Bed, Bath, and Beyond. I think I should do that now.

Woke up with a dizzy-headache. Still kinda have it, so I'm not feeling up to doing much of anything. However, stuff must be done. Kitchen's a mess, my dresser's a mess (again), we need food, need to work on take home midterm, and I have an appointment.

*sigh* I wish the rain would stop. Really puts a damper on my mood. Blech. Is it Saturday night yet?